Here's my heart Lord
Its post election day and well to be honest I woke up with a sense of purpose. I knew before even knowing the outcome of who would soon be the new leader of our free world, that my determination was to not question if this statement still rings truth but to show that freedom is truly ours through Christ. I was determined to speak life and to be brave in my faith, to choose to not feed my flesh and add to the chaos but to be the light in the darkness that is still very much trying it's hardest to bring pain, confusion, fear and despair.
It's very difficult these days to have an opinion, and much less speak it without there being any backlash. It saddens me that many of us allow this very cruel world to overcome us, to drive us to hate. This to me is an indication to my spirit that those of us whom have been called, who God has awoken something in us to rise up and do, be and act better, MUST! There is two scriptures that I choose to mediate on today:
Romans 12:2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is- his good, pleasing and perfect will.
1 Peter 2:9 But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God's special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.
What He is saying is that I must choose to renew my mind, and how I choose to do this is to first flush out all the negative. The noise! Believe me, if that means choose to stay off social media for the day, then so be it. Then go to His truth which is His word. Be proactive and seek Him first.
As many of you already know, I battle with Anxiety and I've learn the triggers to which ignite this dreadful emotion. I was reading in a devotional on my Bible.com app that doubt, fear and worry all of which are emotional instabilities are caused by anxiety. That when you are unstable, you are most likely to make decisions that you will regret later. So you have to get your mind right. How do I do this? By aligning my mind with my spirit, by not allowing these emotions to rule my mind.
The writer Kim Taylor talked about setting our mind on faith! That we must be single-minded. That we have to be determined to trust the situation to God no matter how we feel.
'Faith, is a supernatural act.' If you limit your mind to the natural, then you narrow the options that God has to change your situation. But if you elevate your mind to the supernatural realm through faith, then you are able to take action based on confidence in God's care for you. He says, 'When you become single-minded, keeping your mind stayed on God's word and refuse to be moved, then you open the door for God to move in supernatural ways on your behalf!'
So I've chosen faith! This brings me to the second scripture, He is speaking clearly to me and telling me that I am chosen. That I have a mark on my life, that I must follow His will for my life and that many times it will be uncomfortable, scary, lonely and confusing. But, I must seek His purpose and not my own, I must have faith that no matter the chaos that surrounds and lurks around me I am chosen by Him, I must be the light in an already dark world. The moment we said yes to Him, when we recognized His sacrifice on the cross for us, in that moment He chose us. He has chosen you, it is up to you to receive His call and rise up!
This is where my heart has been! This is why this past weekend when on a usual Saturday, a girl who was expectant to receive a miracle and went to a church that only had been once before felt the nudge of the Holy Spirit and without hesitation said, 'Yes, God!'
All I can remember was hearing Pastor Jeremy Foster of Hope City Church say, ' If you are ready to leave all that you have been called in the past' honestly I can't remember the rest, but I distinctly felt God's goodness all around me and telling me, all that you once were, endured and believed is no longer a part of who you are now. You are my new creation, I chose you at 9 years old and I will continue to choose you! Are you ready?! So I felt my feet walk before I could answer!
I believe that this moment was significant for me much more so then when I first was baptized at 10 years old because then I was saying yes to him without fully knowing who He was, but today after all my pain and what I have overcome in Him, I know that I can't do this life without Him. He is my source of all things and as He extended His hand towards me, I realized that as Abraham had no idea where God was calling Him, I will not question but simply answer Yes, Lord! I'm ready!
I hope that in some way my words does bring comfort to anyone who is hurting, anyone who is confused. Believe me I know how overwhelming things can become. My thoughts and prayers are with those of you who are reaching out for some hope and if in some small way God has used me through my very own places of need to shed light, I pray that He will continue to show Himself to you and consume you with all His goodness and love.
till next post, Lo!
You know I can't leave you without a song :) Here is more than a song, but my prayer and Here's where my heart is truly at Lord!