When you don't know what to write, IF: Guatemala Part 1!
It's been about a week that I've been back from my trip to Guatemala. There has been so many moments that I've opened my laptop to share, but then I've become overwhelmed and just shut it closed. It is sort of like when you have something very important to tell someone, you become so nervous, your mind wanders to the different scenarios that may occur so then you just put it off. Think to yourself, I'lll do it another day or it's not that important, maybe I'll just let it go. I hope it's not just me this happens to, I hope there are a few of you out there who can relate.
I believe, it's all the many emotions that have come with what I experienced on my trip. That I am still taking the time to process it all. I want to unload it all to you but really don't want to leave anything out. So today I just decided to open this darn computer and just type and see what the Lords helps me to share. He in all reality is the one who gives me the words and so lovingly guides my thoughts, and well why question it any longer, right?
Guatemala was so many things but mostly it was humbling, it captured my heart on so many levels. I met some of the most loving, and full of grace individuals ever. I learned that just like me, we are all searching for more, specifically more of God. I also learned that when you encounter Jesus in a whole new way, you are forever changed. I remember the first time I visited Antigua, Guatemala, it was in 2012. I was fulfilling my father's last wishes of leaving his ashes at Pacaya, which is the largest post-caldera volcano. My husband and I were still mourning his death and that trip(you can read more about that here) was purposeful and came with much healing but we could not take in all that the city had to offer us.
I remember the night of my birthday we just wanted to stay in the hotel and talk to our kiddos via FaceTime. We ordered pizza and he was so cute, he even got me a slice of cheesecake. We hardly took many photos and when we left, it came with a sense of peace and wonder if I'd ever return. Who knew, but God that seven years later I'd be back!
When our flight landed and I walked through familiar hallways to the airport exit, the smell of the air as I walked outside hit me. I wanted to burst into tears, I felt my dad, I recalled the journey to bringing him home. While my family was being greeted by their own, I was holding back my tears. The car ride was no different, I just gazed out the window and began to ask the Lord to be by my side and help me to absorb all that he had planned for me, 'such a time as this!'
I'm feeling as though this journey will take maybe more than just one blog post, so I hope you bare with me and follow along. I have been told I should write a book, who knows, never say never!
Friday morning, I woke up with such expectation and fully open to all God had in store. I was in this beautiful city and with some of the best ladies and gentlemen (my cousin) who was our chaperon, aka bodyguard. lol! Love ya Chris! The hotel in which we stayed at was so wonderful, pictures cannot do it justice. Waking up and as soon as you walk out of your room it's like the secret garden in that place. Then you come out to the dining area/restaurant and it's surrounded by the most beautiful view. It was such a blessing, just what my heart needed! I couldn't help but to walk around the property and snap away!
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